age-gap.

i’m back.

august was an extremely busy month, but things are slowly going back to what we can now refer to as normal. expansion phases, consolidation… action, reflection, study, consultation –> confirmation and repeat.

i will not bore you with specifics… but today i got a real taste of the power struggle between young and old. i don’t know what it is, but people in my community, even those who are a few years older than i am, really look down on me. today, some older members of my teaching team presented ideas to an institution and they were wholeheartedly accepted. note: these were the same ideas that i’d been suggesting to this same institution for weeks now. i kept my mouth shut during the meeting… in fact, the few times when i did open my mouth, i was told “can we please talk about this later?”

my team reflected both before and after the meeting about this idea of presenting thoughts at a level that the community can understand, etc… and how it is still important to share one’s thoughts – we can’t just be silent. but i struggle with this, because i’m not often heard. i probably say things differently, but do i really say things in such an unpalatable way? i can’t believe that that is the case every single time. and here’s the interesting thing, too… while i was aware that i am not taken seriously very often, i didn’t realize exactly how bad it was. and now my question to you is… when you serve with people who don’t listen to you – what is the point of serving with them? why should i show up to meetings if i’m not heard?

anyway, this is all quite annoying and frustrating for me, seeing as how i figured, after a biochemistry degree, and gaining the right to vote – i’d be taken a little more seriously… but apparently, blinders are blinders. and i guess, i just gotta keep goin.